Love and Fear are 2 strong emotions. I once read somewhere that all human actions are motivated at their deepest level by two emotions--fear or love.
I have such a huge heart. I love extremely hard. It's a gift and a curse. Because sometimes that love isn't reciprocated. Nothing hurts worst than heartbreak.
But I realized that I there are times when I confuse fear and love. I can stay in a unfruitful situation for too long, feeling that I fighting for love when actually I am Afraid. Afraid the unknown outcomes, afraid of being disappointed, afraid of the loneliness, and mostly afraid of being heartbroken.
Moving in fear has caused me to make bad decisions or worst...it caused me to make no decision at all. Which created an opportunity for other people or even the universe to decide for me.
I am done with living my life by default!
I have only one new year resolution for 2014. It is to DECREASE the burdens of fear and guilt and INCREASE my FAITH!!
I declare war on fear!
I will live my life everyday with great expectations.
I will have faith that everything has a purpose, even if I don't fully understand that purpose.
I will learn from mistakes because mistakes create experiences and experiences build character.
I will love all of my scars because they are what make me unique and being unique is beautiful.
And to you, the Most High God. I know that I question everything all the time, and I'm far from perfect. But I thank you for being patient with me while I'm on my spiritual journey and revealing the answers to my questions in ways that I can understand. Thanks for loving me in spite of my flaws. You are my very best friend. I trust you...I give my life to you...do with it as you see fit.
I'm ready.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
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Friday, May 6, 2011
Mid-Afternoon Mojo!!
Just a little pick me up from a artist I recently came across....IM LOVING THIS SONG!!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Morning Mojo :)
"If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward"
-Martin Luther King Jr.
-Martin Luther King Jr.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Just thinking....and writing
My favorite thing about you...
is that when I talk, you listen.
No interruptions.
No distractions.
No "Well just let me mention"s.
You say that your favorite thing about me...
is that I smile with my eyes
I didn't mean for you to catch that...
you saw right thru right thru my disguise.
You saw thru my "I don't care"s...and "let me call u back"s
You saw my heart...and the love that it lacked
You saw me...Plain.
No sugar.
No cream.
No make-up.
No perfume.
No designer jeans.
Just Key :)
is that when I talk, you listen.
No interruptions.
No distractions.
No "Well just let me mention"s.
You say that your favorite thing about me...
is that I smile with my eyes
I didn't mean for you to catch that...
you saw right thru right thru my disguise.
You saw thru my "I don't care"s...and "let me call u back"s
You saw my heart...and the love that it lacked
You saw me...Plain.
No sugar.
No cream.
No make-up.
No perfume.
No designer jeans.
Just Key :)
Monday, December 20, 2010
SWAGGLIFE MAGAZINE LAUNCH PARTY (My First Gig) LOL
2 post in 1 day....look at me showing off!! LOL
Well...I was looking over some of my work, and came across this job. I remember being sooo nervous and sooo excited not only because it was my first gig...but because I was sooo very proud of my good friends for starting their own magazine. Shout out to Beans and Kyle!!
I must admit...I tore myself apart. I should have asked different questions?? Why does it look like I'm chewing gum??? Shoulda...Coulda...woulda-s right and left. But now...I see my mistakes...I have some changes to make...but overall I love the work...I enjoyed myself...so I want to share :)
Constructive Criticism is definitely wanted and greatly appreciated!!!
RIP Mark Baltimore!!
Well...I was looking over some of my work, and came across this job. I remember being sooo nervous and sooo excited not only because it was my first gig...but because I was sooo very proud of my good friends for starting their own magazine. Shout out to Beans and Kyle!!
I must admit...I tore myself apart. I should have asked different questions?? Why does it look like I'm chewing gum??? Shoulda...Coulda...woulda-s right and left. But now...I see my mistakes...I have some changes to make...but overall I love the work...I enjoyed myself...so I want to share :)
Constructive Criticism is definitely wanted and greatly appreciated!!!
RIP Mark Baltimore!!
THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE
I gave up on God. Go ahead….gasp…judge me even, but the truth is...I was angry, very confused, and I wanted nothing to do with the Bible, church, religion, or God. Yes, I realize how selfish and ungrateful that sounds. Here I am sitting in my comfortable apartment, eating in abundance, driving my own car, employed, healthy, and surrounded by unconditional love. Yet I have the NERVE to complain. Now I see that it was a process, and it was necessary.
I thought God wasn’t listening to me. It seemed as if my prayers would come out of my mouth, bounce off the ceiling, and fly straight into hell for the Devil to do with them as pleased. So I begin speaking without filters...sometimes a little reckless…but it was honest, and as open as I have ever been with God. One day, I asked for TRUTH. I wanted truth to be revealed to me about myself, other people, my decisions, and even current and past situations. Little did I know, God was listening, and I got more Truth than I was ready to handle.
Truth is…I had given up on myself, and started blaming God for all the reasons why I was unhappy.
Truth is…God knows me. God knows my thought process. But, in order for me to understand God I had to shed all of the information that I was given, release my “Church hurt”, and all of the religious confusion. I had to ask questions, research, and trust that this process would lead me to my own personal relationship with God.
Truth is…God has already given me everything that I need. I have plenty of resources, knowledge, and common sense. It is up to me to use everything that God has given me to conquer my goals.
Truth is…I was not making decisions because I was afraid of making the wrong choice. I know now that when I don’t choose I live by default and someone or the universe will choose for me. Life goes on…choose something…if it doesn’t kill you it will strengthen u…then choose again.
Truth is…Where you are currently in life, is direct reflection of your thoughts, your words, and your actions. Wherever you are is exactly where you’re supposed to be. If you don’t like your situation, change it. If you haven’t reached your goals, it’s cool!! TRUST and ENJOY the process!!!
Truth is…THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!! Free to make your own decisions. Free to surrender to your feelings. Free to obtain knowledge and wisdom. Free to Love yourself and others WITHOUT PRETENSE.
I remember when I was a child and my mom would spank me and then she would hug me. I would be hurt, but I learned my lesson, and still felt loved all at the same time. That is exactly how I felt when I woke up this morning.
I am a long way from where I want to be, but I thankful for how far I have come. Thank God :)
Song of the Day...Donnie McClurkin- "We Fall Down"
I thought God wasn’t listening to me. It seemed as if my prayers would come out of my mouth, bounce off the ceiling, and fly straight into hell for the Devil to do with them as pleased. So I begin speaking without filters...sometimes a little reckless…but it was honest, and as open as I have ever been with God. One day, I asked for TRUTH. I wanted truth to be revealed to me about myself, other people, my decisions, and even current and past situations. Little did I know, God was listening, and I got more Truth than I was ready to handle.
Truth is…I had given up on myself, and started blaming God for all the reasons why I was unhappy.
Truth is…God knows me. God knows my thought process. But, in order for me to understand God I had to shed all of the information that I was given, release my “Church hurt”, and all of the religious confusion. I had to ask questions, research, and trust that this process would lead me to my own personal relationship with God.
Truth is…God has already given me everything that I need. I have plenty of resources, knowledge, and common sense. It is up to me to use everything that God has given me to conquer my goals.
Truth is…I was not making decisions because I was afraid of making the wrong choice. I know now that when I don’t choose I live by default and someone or the universe will choose for me. Life goes on…choose something…if it doesn’t kill you it will strengthen u…then choose again.
Truth is…Where you are currently in life, is direct reflection of your thoughts, your words, and your actions. Wherever you are is exactly where you’re supposed to be. If you don’t like your situation, change it. If you haven’t reached your goals, it’s cool!! TRUST and ENJOY the process!!!
Truth is…THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!! Free to make your own decisions. Free to surrender to your feelings. Free to obtain knowledge and wisdom. Free to Love yourself and others WITHOUT PRETENSE.
I remember when I was a child and my mom would spank me and then she would hug me. I would be hurt, but I learned my lesson, and still felt loved all at the same time. That is exactly how I felt when I woke up this morning.
I am a long way from where I want to be, but I thankful for how far I have come. Thank God :)
Song of the Day...Donnie McClurkin- "We Fall Down"
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