Faith only!

Love and Fear are 2 strong emotions. I once read somewhere that all human actions are motivated at their deepest level by two emotions--fear or love.
I have such a huge heart. I love extremely hard. It's a gift and a curse. Because sometimes that love isn't reciprocated. Nothing hurts worst than heartbreak.
 But I realized that I there are times when I confuse fear and love. I can stay in a unfruitful situation for too long, feeling that I fighting for love when actually I am Afraid. Afraid the unknown outcomes, afraid of being disappointed, afraid of the loneliness, and mostly afraid of being heartbroken.
Moving in fear has caused me to make bad decisions or worst...it caused me to make no decision at all. Which created an opportunity for other people or even the universe to decide for me.
 I am done with living my life by default!
I have only one new year resolution for 2014. It is to DECREASE the burdens of fear and guilt and INCREASE my FAITH!!
I declare war on fear!
I will live my life everyday with great expectations.
I will have faith that everything has a purpose, even if I don't fully understand that purpose.
 I will learn from mistakes because mistakes create experiences and experiences build character.
I will love all of my scars because they are what make me unique and being unique is beautiful.

And to you, the Most High God. I know that I question everything all the time, and I'm far from perfect. But I thank you for being patient with me while I'm on my spiritual journey and revealing the answers to my questions in ways that I can understand. Thanks for loving me in spite of my flaws. You are my very best friend. I trust you...I give my life to you...do with it as you see fit.

I'm ready.

MORNING MOJO!!! ....LOVING LUPE!!!

Mid-Afternoon Mojo!!

Just a little pick me up from a artist I recently came across....IM LOVING THIS SONG!!!

Morning Mojo :)

"If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward"
                                                                                                -Martin Luther King Jr.

Just thinking....and writing

My favorite thing about you...
is that when I talk, you listen.
No interruptions.
No distractions.
No "Well just let me mention"s.

You say that your favorite thing about me...
is that I smile with my eyes

I didn't mean for you to catch that...
you saw right thru right thru my disguise.
You saw thru my "I don't care"s...and "let me call u back"s
You saw my heart...and the love that it lacked
You saw me...Plain.

No sugar.
No cream.
No make-up.
No perfume.
No designer jeans.

Just Key :)

SWAGGLIFE MAGAZINE LAUNCH PARTY (My First Gig) LOL

2 post in 1 day....look at me showing off!! LOL

Well...I was looking over some of my work, and came across this job. I remember being sooo nervous and sooo excited not only because it was my first gig...but because I was sooo very proud of my good friends for starting their own magazine. Shout out to Beans and Kyle!!

I must admit...I tore myself apart. I should have asked different questions?? Why does it look like I'm chewing gum??? Shoulda...Coulda...woulda-s right and left. But now...I see my mistakes...I have some changes to make...but overall I love the work...I enjoyed myself...so I want to share :)

Constructive Criticism is definitely wanted and greatly appreciated!!!

RIP Mark Baltimore!!

THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

I gave up on God. Go ahead….gasp…judge me even, but the truth is...I was angry, very confused, and I wanted nothing to do with the Bible, church, religion, or God. Yes, I realize how selfish and ungrateful that sounds. Here I am sitting in my comfortable apartment, eating in abundance, driving my own car, employed, healthy, and surrounded by unconditional love. Yet I have the NERVE to complain. Now I see that it was a process, and it was necessary.


I thought God wasn’t listening to me. It seemed as if my prayers would come out of my mouth, bounce off the ceiling, and fly straight into hell for the Devil to do with them as pleased. So I begin speaking without filters...sometimes a little reckless…but it was honest, and as open as I have ever been with God. One day, I asked for TRUTH. I wanted truth to be revealed to me about myself, other people, my decisions, and even current and past situations. Little did I know, God was listening, and I got more Truth than I was ready to handle.

Truth is…I had given up on myself, and started blaming God for all the reasons why I was unhappy.

Truth is…God knows me. God knows my thought process. But, in order for me to understand God I had to shed all of the information that I was given, release my “Church hurt”, and all of the religious confusion. I had to ask questions, research, and trust that this process would lead me to my own personal relationship with God.

Truth is…God has already given me everything that I need. I have plenty of resources, knowledge, and common sense. It is up to me to use everything that God has given me to conquer my goals.

Truth is…I was not making decisions because I was afraid of making the wrong choice. I know now that when I don’t choose I live by default and someone or the universe will choose for me. Life goes on…choose something…if it doesn’t kill you it will strengthen u…then choose again.

Truth is…Where you are currently in life, is direct reflection of your thoughts, your words, and your actions. Wherever you are is exactly where you’re supposed to be. If you don’t like your situation, change it. If you haven’t reached your goals, it’s cool!! TRUST and ENJOY the process!!!

Truth is…THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!! Free to make your own decisions. Free to surrender to your feelings. Free to obtain knowledge and wisdom. Free to Love yourself and others WITHOUT PRETENSE.

I remember when I was a child and my mom would spank me and then she would hug me. I would be hurt, but I learned my lesson, and still felt loved all at the same time. That is exactly how I felt when I woke up this morning.

I am a long way from where I want to be, but I thankful for how far I have come. Thank God :)

Song of the Day...Donnie McClurkin- "We Fall Down"
 

DIDNT NEED ZOLOFT TO SLEEP....JUST WATCHED THE VMA'S

THERE WAS NOTHING....AND I MEAN NOTHING EXCITING ABOUT THE 2010 VMAs. I WAS KINDA HAPPY BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS THAT SUNDAY NIGHT PROGRAMMING IS MY FAVORITE...AND I DEF COULDN'T MISS THE SEASON FINALE OF ENTOURAGE.

ANYWAY...I WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU GUYS SOME OF MY FAVORITE VMA MOMENTS....IM SURE THERE ARE PLENTY MORE BUT THESE WERE THE FIRST 5 THAT CAME TO MIND.

#1. JAY-Z AND ALICIA KEYS....EMPIRE STATE OF MIND!!!!! (2009)



THIS PERFORMANCE WAS SOOOO ELECTRIFYING. I CAN REMEMBER WANTING TO GO STRAIGHT TO THE AIRPORT AND GET ON THE FIRST PLANE TO NYC...LOL. AND EVEN THO LIL MAMA DECIDED TO HI-JACK PERFORMANCE....ITS STILL ONE OF OF THE BEST I EVER SAW!!

2. CHRIS BROWN FT RIHANNA...WALL TO WALL, UMBRELLA, AND KISS KISS MIX (2007)



CHRIS BROWN IS ONE DANCING SON OF A GUN....MAN OH MAN...WHEN THEY STARTED JUMPING ACROSS THOSE TABLES I WANTED TO LOSE MY MIND. I JUST KNEW HIM AND RIHANNA WERE GOING TO BY THE NEXT JAY AND BEY BUT UMMMMMM....YEAHHH...GUESS NOT. ANYWAY...WHAT A SPECTACULAR PERFORMANCE!!!

3. DIDDY (WELL PUFF DADDY AT THE TIME), STING, AND FAITH...I'LL BE MISSING YOU-TRIBUTE TO BIG!! (1997)



SUCH A GREAT MOMENT!! CLASSIC. RIP BIG

4. NSYNC FT MICHALE JACKSON....POP (2001)



LMAO....MIKE WAS GETTING IT WASN'T HE!! I LOVE THIS PERFORMANCE....ITS SOO COLORFUL AND FULL OF ENERGY!!

5.P.DIDDY, USHER, GINUWINE, BUSTA RHYMES, AND PHARRELL (2002)



YEEEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! HOW CAN U NOT GET PUMPED AFTER WATCHING THIS!! IM EXCITED....DIDDY BOPPING, TWO STEPPING, SLIDING ACROSS THE FLOOR AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!! I LOVE IT!!

OK....ONE MORE

6. BEYONCE....RING THE ALARM (2006)



ITS BEY....NUFF SAID :0)

DEAR MTV,

PLEASE STEP YA COOKIES UP!!

THX!!

JUST KEY

*CRICKETS*

WAITING FOR LIFE TO GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WRITE ABOUT...OR AT LEAST SOMETHING I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT :)

MEANWHILE....SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY ISSSS

E. BADU "WINDOW SEAT"

HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS....

SOOOO....IM HAVING ONE OF THE EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER DAYS. SO MUCH IS GOING ON...AND I FEEL LIKE IM IN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL...BUT I WONT BE DEFEATED. DON'T HAVE MUCH TO SAY...I WILL LET THE MUSIC BE MY THERAPY.


SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY

I TOLD THE STORM...Greg O'Quin 'N Joyful Noize

STAY ENCOURAGED :0)

CUTTY'S SURPRISE DINNER PARTY AT MI CASA

OK so dinner parties are officially my favorite thing to do!! (well...as for right now). I decided to turn my 1 bedroom apt into a restaurant and give Cutty a Surprise 30th Birthday Party.


I must say that was the best crazy idea I have had thus far...WE HAD A BLAST!!


WE ATE, WE LAUGHED, WE PLAYED GAMES, WE LAUGHED SOME MORE!!

WE CELEBRATED...IT WAS A NIGHT I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER!!

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO CAME!!

AND I HAVE TO GIVE A BIGGGGGGG THANK YOU TO SHERIA AND ERIKA!! Thanks for ripping and running around with me allllll day, being the CEOS, the designers, the organizers, the hosts, the servers, and the clean up crew...all on 2-3 hours of sleep..LOL...I DEFINITELY could not have pulled it off without y'all!! THANKS AGAIN!! LOVE U MUCH!!

THANKS TO MY CUZZO MOE (ARTISTIC VISIONS BY MOE) FOR COMING THRU AND TAKING PICS!!!

I JUST REALIZED THAT BLOGGER DOESN'T HAVE A MULTI PICTURE UPLOADER OR I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE IT...AND I SAT HERE FOR ALMOST AN HOUR UPLOADING PICTURE BY PICTURE IN VAIN BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON THEY DIDN'T SHOW UP...SOOOOOO I'M NOT GOING TO BE SELFISH...I'M GOING TO PUT THEM ON FACEBOOK. SHOOTAH.
 
HERE'S A FEW THO...
 

 

TABLES AT MI CASA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUTTY!!

MI CASA'S CEOS, ORGANIZERS, DESIGNERS, AND STAFF LOL
THANKS SHERIA AND ERIKA!!

SURPPRRRIIIISSSEEEEE!!!!

THE MENU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUTTY!!!

TODAY'S POST IS DEDICATED TO MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE WORLD!!

HE IS A GREAT MAN...A TERRIFIC FATHER...AND A AWESOME FRIEND!!

I LOVE U DAVID "CUTTY" HALL!!! ENJOY UR DAY :0)

SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Word of the Day....DIVERSIFICATION!!!

You don't hear many success stories everyday...especially when you are born and raised in poverty. So for a  young black male to make it out of the projects (check), financially prosper and still survive to make it out of the drug game (check), successfully weed his way thru countless underground rappers and shine in the music industry (check), to making it allllll the way to the top of the Forbes list (check) is more than a success story....it's Jay-Z's story. According to Forbes.com Shawn "Jay-Z" Carter personally grossed $63 million from June 2009-June 2010....how he did it?? DIVERSIFICATION!!

I guess he meant it when he said "I'm not a businessman...I'M A BUSINESS MAN...I handle my business damn"

But anyway this article is not about Jay-Z...its not even about music....its about me finally getting the AH HA moment Ive been waiting to have for far too long. If you have read my previous posts you can see that  I have been doing some soul searching trying to figure out exactly what I wanted to do with my life. I called myself a jack of all trades...and a master of none...but that actually turns out to be a good thing...WHEN DONE THE RIGHT WAY!!

Jay-Z, Diddy, and Akon head the Forbes.com list because they don't focus on just one thing. They are entrepreneurs, actors, and executives all at the same time. I know I'm going down the right path...I'm excited to see where this road will lead me.

Soundtrack for the Day....Jigga "U Don't Know" 

MY OFF DAY

Sooo Im off of work on this rainy day. Usually the rain messes with my mood. But I came across these videos on YouTube that had me cracking up alll morning.

Im sure it will brighten your day...as it did mine.

Meanwhile....I really need to be working on my next blog.

Anyway...here you go Baltimore's own Maurice HOTDAMNIROCK!!!

Im trying...but not hard enough.

Yesterday I was imperfect...Today Im learning...Tomorrow I will be improved.
(or something like that...lol)

My Soundtrack for today isssssssssss Amel Larrieux - Get Up

Good Night Good People

*Muah*

Fail VS Try (Fail is kicking my ass) LOL Attempt #2

OK sooo...in my previous post I declared to blog 21 days straight...needless to say...I failed. My uncle once told me that NOTHING BEATS A FAIL BUT A TRY. So here I am again....WATCH YOUR BACK FAIL, YOU WILL BE DEFEATED!!! LOL.

Anyway...I need to be completely honest for a sec. Bare with me as I try to make sense of everything going thru my brain.

I have been extremely blessed with many talents. I am the type of women who can cook dinner, plan and design a party (within minutes might I add), all while sewing in my girlfriends weave *wink*. Sometimes I feel like being multi-talented is a curse. I'm indecisive...sometimes unfocused. Before I know it, years have gone by and I haven't accomplished any of the 5-10 things that I started. I am a jack of all trades...master of none.

At work...I sit in a cubicle (which is like a mental prison for someone with an overactive brain). But I came up with yet another almost impossible business journey. I had no choice but to laugh at myself because I have no clue where these ideas come from. I had to call my godmother on this one (she always set me straight)

"Keyaira, you have to choose!!" These are the words that she repeated, over and over and over again.

Now I'm not a very religious person...I'm more spiritual. Well...that's another part of my life that I can apply the JUST CHOOSE motto (but that's a whooollleeee notha post, which may be coming soon because I had a very  interesting conversation with a Jehovah's Witness the other day) Back to my point.

I heard something. I felt different. (I don't know if it was God or I am really schizophrenic) lol

But these words came to mind...."TO WHOM MUCH IS GIVEN, MUCH IS REQUIRED"

This is my choice.

I choose to have outstanding work ethic. I will let my work speak for itself.

I choose to be fearless. I will not be afraid to face challenges. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.

I choose to take chances, to get up and brush myself off when I fall down, to not limit the possibilities that life has to offer, to love and embrace my journey.....to live.

Thanks Godmommy.

Soundtrack for this post...Pink's MISUNDERSTOOD

CHANGED MY MIND....REVISED SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY!!! LOL

IM LOVING EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS VIDEO AND THIS SONG!! SOOOO MUCH TALENT...DEF A INSPIRATION....

NEVER LANDING....THANKS SWAGGABOY LOS!!! :)

SOUNDTRACK FOR TODAY

DAY 21

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"


*MUAH* LOVE YALL!!

Its nights like this when the craziest things come to mind (yup, an idle mind really is the devil's playground). But instead of tossing and turning like I usually do. I decided to get up, inspire, and motivate myself.

*PROGRESS* :0)

I once heard that anything you do for 21 days becomes a habit. I tested this theory on my punctuality at work and TA DA...No more Mr. Write Ups.

So here I go again....21 days of blogging.

Nowwwww I'm not promising anything fancy (well....maybe sometimes). But for the most part you will get just me. Just Key. My thoughts...my feelings...my life.

I will start the countdown tomorrow....well later today. But for the Pre-Just Key 21 days of blogging extravaganza "wee hours in the am edition" (yup...I get extra silly when I'm sleepy), I will give you words of wisdom from Will Smith. Good effin stuff!!!

Enjoy :0)