Just thinking....and writing

My favorite thing about you...
is that when I talk, you listen.
No interruptions.
No distractions.
No "Well just let me mention"s.

You say that your favorite thing about me...
is that I smile with my eyes

I didn't mean for you to catch that...
you saw right thru right thru my disguise.
You saw thru my "I don't care"s...and "let me call u back"s
You saw my heart...and the love that it lacked
You saw me...Plain.

No sugar.
No cream.
No make-up.
No perfume.
No designer jeans.

Just Key :)

SWAGGLIFE MAGAZINE LAUNCH PARTY (My First Gig) LOL

2 post in 1 day....look at me showing off!! LOL

Well...I was looking over some of my work, and came across this job. I remember being sooo nervous and sooo excited not only because it was my first gig...but because I was sooo very proud of my good friends for starting their own magazine. Shout out to Beans and Kyle!!

I must admit...I tore myself apart. I should have asked different questions?? Why does it look like I'm chewing gum??? Shoulda...Coulda...woulda-s right and left. But now...I see my mistakes...I have some changes to make...but overall I love the work...I enjoyed myself...so I want to share :)

Constructive Criticism is definitely wanted and greatly appreciated!!!

RIP Mark Baltimore!!

THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE

I gave up on God. Go ahead….gasp…judge me even, but the truth is...I was angry, very confused, and I wanted nothing to do with the Bible, church, religion, or God. Yes, I realize how selfish and ungrateful that sounds. Here I am sitting in my comfortable apartment, eating in abundance, driving my own car, employed, healthy, and surrounded by unconditional love. Yet I have the NERVE to complain. Now I see that it was a process, and it was necessary.


I thought God wasn’t listening to me. It seemed as if my prayers would come out of my mouth, bounce off the ceiling, and fly straight into hell for the Devil to do with them as pleased. So I begin speaking without filters...sometimes a little reckless…but it was honest, and as open as I have ever been with God. One day, I asked for TRUTH. I wanted truth to be revealed to me about myself, other people, my decisions, and even current and past situations. Little did I know, God was listening, and I got more Truth than I was ready to handle.

Truth is…I had given up on myself, and started blaming God for all the reasons why I was unhappy.

Truth is…God knows me. God knows my thought process. But, in order for me to understand God I had to shed all of the information that I was given, release my “Church hurt”, and all of the religious confusion. I had to ask questions, research, and trust that this process would lead me to my own personal relationship with God.

Truth is…God has already given me everything that I need. I have plenty of resources, knowledge, and common sense. It is up to me to use everything that God has given me to conquer my goals.

Truth is…I was not making decisions because I was afraid of making the wrong choice. I know now that when I don’t choose I live by default and someone or the universe will choose for me. Life goes on…choose something…if it doesn’t kill you it will strengthen u…then choose again.

Truth is…Where you are currently in life, is direct reflection of your thoughts, your words, and your actions. Wherever you are is exactly where you’re supposed to be. If you don’t like your situation, change it. If you haven’t reached your goals, it’s cool!! TRUST and ENJOY the process!!!

Truth is…THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE!! Free to make your own decisions. Free to surrender to your feelings. Free to obtain knowledge and wisdom. Free to Love yourself and others WITHOUT PRETENSE.

I remember when I was a child and my mom would spank me and then she would hug me. I would be hurt, but I learned my lesson, and still felt loved all at the same time. That is exactly how I felt when I woke up this morning.

I am a long way from where I want to be, but I thankful for how far I have come. Thank God :)

Song of the Day...Donnie McClurkin- "We Fall Down"
 

DIDNT NEED ZOLOFT TO SLEEP....JUST WATCHED THE VMA'S

THERE WAS NOTHING....AND I MEAN NOTHING EXCITING ABOUT THE 2010 VMAs. I WAS KINDA HAPPY BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOWS THAT SUNDAY NIGHT PROGRAMMING IS MY FAVORITE...AND I DEF COULDN'T MISS THE SEASON FINALE OF ENTOURAGE.

ANYWAY...I WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU GUYS SOME OF MY FAVORITE VMA MOMENTS....IM SURE THERE ARE PLENTY MORE BUT THESE WERE THE FIRST 5 THAT CAME TO MIND.

#1. JAY-Z AND ALICIA KEYS....EMPIRE STATE OF MIND!!!!! (2009)



THIS PERFORMANCE WAS SOOOO ELECTRIFYING. I CAN REMEMBER WANTING TO GO STRAIGHT TO THE AIRPORT AND GET ON THE FIRST PLANE TO NYC...LOL. AND EVEN THO LIL MAMA DECIDED TO HI-JACK PERFORMANCE....ITS STILL ONE OF OF THE BEST I EVER SAW!!

2. CHRIS BROWN FT RIHANNA...WALL TO WALL, UMBRELLA, AND KISS KISS MIX (2007)



CHRIS BROWN IS ONE DANCING SON OF A GUN....MAN OH MAN...WHEN THEY STARTED JUMPING ACROSS THOSE TABLES I WANTED TO LOSE MY MIND. I JUST KNEW HIM AND RIHANNA WERE GOING TO BY THE NEXT JAY AND BEY BUT UMMMMMM....YEAHHH...GUESS NOT. ANYWAY...WHAT A SPECTACULAR PERFORMANCE!!!

3. DIDDY (WELL PUFF DADDY AT THE TIME), STING, AND FAITH...I'LL BE MISSING YOU-TRIBUTE TO BIG!! (1997)



SUCH A GREAT MOMENT!! CLASSIC. RIP BIG

4. NSYNC FT MICHALE JACKSON....POP (2001)



LMAO....MIKE WAS GETTING IT WASN'T HE!! I LOVE THIS PERFORMANCE....ITS SOO COLORFUL AND FULL OF ENERGY!!

5.P.DIDDY, USHER, GINUWINE, BUSTA RHYMES, AND PHARRELL (2002)



YEEEAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! HOW CAN U NOT GET PUMPED AFTER WATCHING THIS!! IM EXCITED....DIDDY BOPPING, TWO STEPPING, SLIDING ACROSS THE FLOOR AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!! I LOVE IT!!

OK....ONE MORE

6. BEYONCE....RING THE ALARM (2006)



ITS BEY....NUFF SAID :0)

DEAR MTV,

PLEASE STEP YA COOKIES UP!!

THX!!

JUST KEY

*CRICKETS*

WAITING FOR LIFE TO GIVE ME SOMETHING TO WRITE ABOUT...OR AT LEAST SOMETHING I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT :)

MEANWHILE....SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY ISSSS

E. BADU "WINDOW SEAT"

HAVING ONE OF THOSE DAYS....

SOOOO....IM HAVING ONE OF THE EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER DAYS. SO MUCH IS GOING ON...AND I FEEL LIKE IM IN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL...BUT I WONT BE DEFEATED. DON'T HAVE MUCH TO SAY...I WILL LET THE MUSIC BE MY THERAPY.


SOUNDTRACK OF THE DAY

I TOLD THE STORM...Greg O'Quin 'N Joyful Noize

STAY ENCOURAGED :0)

CUTTY'S SURPRISE DINNER PARTY AT MI CASA

OK so dinner parties are officially my favorite thing to do!! (well...as for right now). I decided to turn my 1 bedroom apt into a restaurant and give Cutty a Surprise 30th Birthday Party.


I must say that was the best crazy idea I have had thus far...WE HAD A BLAST!!


WE ATE, WE LAUGHED, WE PLAYED GAMES, WE LAUGHED SOME MORE!!

WE CELEBRATED...IT WAS A NIGHT I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER!!

THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO CAME!!

AND I HAVE TO GIVE A BIGGGGGGG THANK YOU TO SHERIA AND ERIKA!! Thanks for ripping and running around with me allllll day, being the CEOS, the designers, the organizers, the hosts, the servers, and the clean up crew...all on 2-3 hours of sleep..LOL...I DEFINITELY could not have pulled it off without y'all!! THANKS AGAIN!! LOVE U MUCH!!

THANKS TO MY CUZZO MOE (ARTISTIC VISIONS BY MOE) FOR COMING THRU AND TAKING PICS!!!

I JUST REALIZED THAT BLOGGER DOESN'T HAVE A MULTI PICTURE UPLOADER OR I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE IT...AND I SAT HERE FOR ALMOST AN HOUR UPLOADING PICTURE BY PICTURE IN VAIN BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON THEY DIDN'T SHOW UP...SOOOOOO I'M NOT GOING TO BE SELFISH...I'M GOING TO PUT THEM ON FACEBOOK. SHOOTAH.
 
HERE'S A FEW THO...
 

 

TABLES AT MI CASA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUTTY!!

MI CASA'S CEOS, ORGANIZERS, DESIGNERS, AND STAFF LOL
THANKS SHERIA AND ERIKA!!

SURPPRRRIIIISSSEEEEE!!!!

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